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i've been stuck in bed with the sucky feelings and my head will just be thinking so much. mostly about wad i dreamt. i used to be the morning kinda person. i'll wake up really happy coz i knew wad was in stall for me. i'll take all the effort to make myself breakfast. but i cant bring myself to do tat right now.
the next sucky part is at night. i'll just lay in bed, thinking about my future and wad it is gonna be. sometimes it comforts me and sometimes it doesnt. this is wad i came to last night: i'll keep my heart free for the next 2yrs? but i'll still explore my options. i just do not want to commit myself again so soon. and wen im finally back in s'pore for good, i'll find a guy in chc. i think tats the best plan i got so far. why chc? coz tats my home church and i want a guy tat is really grounded in God, who will go to church and cell group with me every week. i really do not want to go thru another heart-break. i mean...who wants to? if i'm ever gonna have another long-dist r/s. the longest tat i'll ever hold is 1 yr. i think 1 yr is still reasonably ok and i'll need to know from tat guy tat he is willing to commit and to wait.
ive learnt so much from the past. tat communication is seriously important! and for long dist r/s, dont ever pick a fight over small things even tho u are pms-ing. it is not worth it!
in the meantime, i really really really really wanna talk to him. it has been so many days already. but im not sure if he wants to talk to me or if he's ready. and if you're reading it (but wad are the chances?? big zero), i promise...no emo talks...just talks like wad friends do.
naomi at 9:05 AM
about me:
naomi suen ♥
born and raised in sg
relocated to nz in 2006
final year in UOA! studying psych and employment relations & org studies
working part time as a CSR in vodafone
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